--- title: Helping support women with breast cancer description: Another incredible poem from a breast cancer survivor, as part of our contribution to the campaign to help generate awareness of Breast Cancer Awareness Month image: https://blog.careshield.co.uk/hubfs/Blog_Images/Screen_Shot_2016-10-11_at_16.17.08.png --- Call **0345 880 1818** to find out more about our training - [Login / Register](http://www.careshield.co.uk/login-register.html) [![CareShield](https://blog.careshield.co.uk/hs-fs/hubfs/Care_Shield_Jan2016/Nwlogo.jpg?width=268&name=Nwlogo.jpg "CareShield")](http://www.careshield.co.uk/) - [Home](http://www.careshield.co.uk/) - [About Us](http://www.careshield.co.uk/aboutus/index.html) - [About Us](http://www.careshield.co.uk/aboutus/index.html) - [What We Do](http://www.careshield.co.uk/aboutus/careshield-What-We-Do.html) - [Who We Are](http://www.careshield.co.uk/aboutus/careshield-Who-We-Are.html) - [Why CareShield?](http://www.careshield.co.uk/aboutus/Why-CareShield.html) - [Solutions](http://www.careshield.co.uk/Solutions/index.html) - [elearning](http://www.careshield.co.uk/elearning/index.html) - [Blended Learning](http://www.careshield.co.uk/Blended_Learning/index.html) - [Myrus LMS](http://www.careshield.co.uk/Myrus/index.html) - [Clinical](http://www.careshield.co.uk/clinical/index.html) - [Face to Face](http://www.careshield.co.uk/Face_To_Face/index.html) - [Sectors](http://www.careshield.co.uk/Industry/index.html) - [Health and Social Care](http://www.careshield.co.uk/care/heath-and-social-care) - [Hospitals & NHS](http://www.careshield.co.uk/NHS/index.html) - [Education](http://www.careshield.co.uk/Education/index.html) - [Staffing Agencies](http://www.careshield.co.uk/Staffing/index.html) - [News & Blog](https://blog.careshield.co.uk) - [Blog](https://blog.careshield.co.uk) - [News](http://www.careshield.co.uk/news/index.html) - [Newsletters](http://www.careshield.co.uk/news/newsletters) - [Events](http://www.careshield.co.uk/events/index.html) - [Social Media](http://www.careshield.co.uk/social-media) - [Shop](http://www.careshield.co.uk/shop) - [Mandatory courses](http://www.careshield.co.uk/Shop/mandatory) - [Newsletters](http://www.careshield.co.uk/news/newsletters) - [Care Certificate](http://www.careshield.co.uk/Shop/care-certificate-1) - [All Courses](http://www.careshield.co.uk/Shop/all-courses) - [Contact Us](http://www.careshield.co.uk/contact-us.html) - [Contact details](http://www.careshield.co.uk/contact-us.html) - [Support FAQ](http://www.careshield.co.uk/FAQ/index.html) - [Downloadable resources](http://www.careshield.co.uk/downloads/index.html) - [Careers & Vacancies](http://www.careshield.co.uk/Careers) ## Helping support women with breast cancer -   Tuesday, October 11, 2016 -   0 Comments [Comments (0)](https://blog.careshield.co.uk/helping-support-women-with-breast-cancer#comments-listing) Continuing  our month of poems to express solidarity with everyone touched by breast cancer: ##### ![Screen_Shot_2016-10-11_at_16.17.08.png](https://blog.careshield.co.uk/hs-fs/hubfs/Blog_Images/Screen_Shot_2016-10-11_at_16.17.08.png?width=320&name=Screen_Shot_2016-10-11_at_16.17.08.png)**Looking Back.....** How did I get through all that crap? Where is SHE now? Who was I then? The choices we made remembering them... I think back to those dark times Wondering how I got through it "Don't know how you did what you did" It's a case of having to isn't it? There's an inner strength lurking there, you don't know you've got it You're in that dark hole having an outer body experience Is this really happening to ME? Perhaps I will wake up soon, and find it's a dream! The choices you had... Were they choices at all? I lost a year Who is SHE staring back at me? Not the person I knew before Will SHE come back or has SHE gone? Who decides that? "Can you live with it wondering if it's still there? Is it? "How do you feel?" Well, I don't know is this real? Can any one help? We could talk.... "Do you remember how you felt before?" One day I was fine, the next wham.... "How do you cope with that?" I don't know! "How do you feel?" the biggest Fear, is it real?, it's surreal. Does a day go by when you don't think about it?" What if?......... "Let's have facts, believe, do not catastrophise, do not agonise" But what if....... How do you know? You don't so.......... Ok so who's here now? ME or SHE? Is she me? I don't know? I don't want to cry anymore..... I don't want to think am I cured I want to know.... "But you don't do you?, and you can't" I can talk now..... Re-live the fear, anxieties, pain, anger, (oh yes there's lots of that), dread, distress, disbelief, horror, thinking about what they did to ME, how I reacted and felt SHOCK, "think it's post traumatic, didn't cope well with DX" Well I was on a roller coaster, I wanted it to stop but it wouldn't It took me to places I didn't want to go "Can you let it go?" I'm not sure should I? Is that why I'M here and not HER? Where is SHE? "Are you coming to terms with it?" Is that possible? Do I have to? Should I? Do you know what it feels like? Do you want to? Shall I try to tell you?............... 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